Valentin Lebedev
Diary of a Cosmonaut

Went to bed, fell asleep immediately — exhausted. But the feeling that I’d forgotten something weighed so heavily on me that I woke up half an hour later and remembered: I hadn’t turned on the nighttime cooling loop and the condensate pump.

Got up, turned them on, lay back down — and then the thoughts came, a whole torrent of them, keeping me awake. I lay there until morning. One thought I wanted to write down while still in bed. In human relationships, everything is possible: arguing, quarreling, even hurting your crewmate, and all of this can be understood and forgiven. But you must never encroach upon the essential, the core — a person’s dignity and the respect others have for him.

Every person has a fragile inner image of the world and of everything best connected to it, and if you strike at or encroach upon this inner temple of a person’s foundations — that’s tragedy. A clash of morals arises, morals built over years, nurtured through generations of families. You can’t remake them. And then it’s either total fierce antagonism, or if you must go on living together, someone breaks. Or if both are strong, a disengagement based on reason — without scandals, people simply stop living together and start merely existing side by side, trying to have as little contact as possible.

The pillar of human relationships is dignity, and it must never be encroached upon.

All day we worked on applied experiments. Then Savchenko brought good news — the “Piramig” star field photographs turned out well. So our sleepless nights refining the methodology in flight weren’t in vain.

The comm operator in the last session congratulated us with a decree from the President of France awarding us the Order of the Legion of Honor. We didn’t expect it — honestly thought they’d only decorate the visiting crew. Wonderful. Lyusek must be happy now.

Today I had some very interesting observations over three orbits of the Mugodzhar range of the Southern Urals, which stretches to the Aral Sea. I photographed everything. They say my tape recording was taken to the geologists.